Why I hate my Animations etc

No, I do not hate my animations out a lack of my abilities. I know I'm not a great animator or musician, but I'm a work in progress. I accept my inabilities knowing I will progress in time as I create more. But here are some deeper reasons why I hate my animations (not punitively):

1 - O High and mighty (pride)
When I make something about a issue I can think, I have grasped that issue and am above it. But pride comes before a fall. Really I'm just a messenger, still subject to the message.

2 - Passivity (a mix of 1 & 3)
Just as I can create something with a message and disregard the message, I fear people can see my stuff and while agreeing with it, not apply it to their life. Like the people who own "I love Jesus" T-shirts but live in such a way that says I hate Jesus. Please take the messages to heart if you like them, otherwise don't favour my films & music if your lifestyle proves you to be hypocritical (saying one thing but living another).
Don't fool yourself!

3 - Fantasy of reality
Anything that is a representation of reality, is not real, only a representation. When I make things that represent reality I fear I am doing it a dis-service. People can get so wrapped up in the fantasy world's created by mankind that we can disregard things in the real world. i.e. "Why have friends when you can watch friends". I do not want to add to the obsession of amusement.

4 - False God's or partial representation of God
While most (if not all) of my creations represent God in some aspect I fear I am not representing Him fully and in doing so breaking the first commandment. "You shall have no other Gods". God is so much more than what I can put into a film. Even people are more that what is shown in films. How much more is the view of God diminished through 2D images on a flat screen.

5 - Illusion of great accomplishment (pride)
I do feel good when I complete anything and it is easy to rest upon that accomplishment and build myself up in such things. But at the end of the day such things will fade in the passing of time. Just because I spend heaps of time on something does not make me more important than you.

6 - Deceptions of popularity
I would like many people to see the things I make but the shallowness of views and popularity makes me feel queezy. Like, if heaps of people see my stuff it will mean my stuff is good but if they don't then all that time was wasted.
The truth is I could have an awesome film and it not be regarded as so or have a horrible film and it be regareded as great. I hate my concern for views, votes etc

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CURRENT PLANS

My "The Heart of Stone" animation is a shallow storyline to what it was originally. I've created a new storyline that will address the deeper things that were left out in "The Heart of Stone". It will be in two parts. I'm aiming to have both parts finished within the year but expecting both to take a year each. I'm going to change my style a bit and do full animation. Hopefully I'll have the patience for it otherwise I'll just have to up my game, get some more experience points and try again untill I succeed ;D

All my plans are only plans and I do not know when my time will be up. So God willing I'll do this along with songs throughout the year for my new 2012 album "This Narrow Road".

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Ratcaller 2012-03-10 10:29:17

Stop being such a emo a just say "I run this place motherfuker!"

PIED3 2012-03-10 11:07:25

"No, I do not hate my animations out a lack of my abilities." yet every criticism you had reflected your inability to do something? eg. your inability to recreate reality accurately, your inablity to represent Gods potency accurately etc. etc.
Let's be serious here, "hating" your animations is obviously a stupid thing to do. Seeing there flaws is nice, knowing they aren't perfect is fine, but hating them is just a waste of time and is unlikely to motivate you to make more. "Don't let perfection be the enemy of the good"

nahtanojmal 2012-03-10 11:07:25

uhh... I did say I hate them but not punitively. Punitive meaning Inflicting or intended as punishment. It is more of a frustration while progressing.

Gonzossm 2012-03-10 11:30:28

I like animating :P

nahtanojmal 2012-03-10 11:30:28

Well, that's nice.....

GagaManMusic 2012-03-10 11:31:58

Hi Nathan,

I don't want you to think I am being mean or a hater. I honestly want to share my knowledge with you and say things as I believe they are and not just to annoy you or anyone else. I apologize in advance for any spelling errors I might make as I am not a native English speaker or writer for that matter.

First of all I think you are very talented at drawing and animating. I really do. I remember first seeing your Spud animations and loving them.

Besides that I feel you live very emotionally and you like living within a spiritual vibe. All I'm trying to say is that I don't believe that you should waste your time with trying to please God as he most likely doesn't exist. I know it must feel so real because you view the world with your emotional part and not so much with the logical part - I used to do that too. What I'm trying to say by logic is that - let's be honest the Bible doesn't really have much logical thought to it and there are so many things that are contradictory within it.

A wise man once said to me that the knowledge we have shouldn't be kept to ourselves but shared because only in this way can we live in a better world.

I honestly think that if you all got the correct information from when we are children then we could do so much more good in the world than we are currently doing. I mean I know the idea of God is appealing because you believe that if you believe in him you will live forever - but that is really the only trap inside religion - it promises to make you immortal and that idea of leaving for ever is actually the thing people crave the most in the world even if they aren't fully aware of it. Nobody really wants to die but in the end that is man's and every animals destiny or path in life, than in death.

I an sure it is easy to contradict me now as you will block my views from what you feel is real at this moment. But in time you will come to understand that the reality of things doesn't go down like the Bible says but in a more natural way. I think we have so little time here that it is annoying to think that some dream their lives away for an ideal that in the end is his own egocentric nature of never going away or dying.

You sir will live forever but not in heaven or hell but in the minds of those who will see and appreciate what you've done here.

I believe that no one knows what waits for us when we die...

nahtanojmal 2012-03-10 11:31:58

Emotions are deceptive if not grounded in truth. I find truth in the Bible. If really want to convince me there is no God, you'll have to target the infallibility of the Bible.

MindChamber 2012-03-10 12:03:19

Im atheistist, but I love religion when used in a positive way. I find religion to be powerful, and beautiful and can bring out intense emotion. Some might be moved by your faith and your view of it in your animations, but to say, do not favorite or follow my animations if you have no intention to be faithful to its meaning, is extremely arrogant. Jesus was tolerant of all religions and beliefs just as long you were kind to those who are around you.
'just sayin'

nahtanojmal 2012-03-10 12:03:19

And when Jesus drove out the religious people from the temple He was being tolerant of them.

Dunso 2012-03-10 12:45:08

"I do not want to add to the obsession of amusement." dude, without amusement the human mind succumbs to boredom, boredom leads to negativity and negativity leads to cynisism and bad desicion making. Trust me on this one, there is no such thing as too much amusement as long as you still have time for work.

nahtanojmal 2012-03-10 12:45:08

You can have entertainment
but it is wrong to be consumed/obsessed by it. Where it robs us of reality.

PegasuTV 2012-03-10 15:27:03

fagget.

RiverJordan 2012-03-11 18:13:42

Don't worry about how others feel about your work, because there will always be a polarity of love and hate. That polarity is reflected within you, and if you are creating art and animation from a conscious space of uneasiness, dislike or not enjoying what it is your creating, then that will reflect in how others respond and perceive your work.

When you work from a space of love, love for yourself, love for your work and a desire to share your creations, the negative aspects of things falls away, and you can learn to understand where that negativity was coming from within you, and learn and grow from that experience. Everything is energy, which means everything can be transmuted, negative energy can change into positive energy, just as positive can change to negative. Seize the moment to find the passion thats burning in your soul and let it flow without any worry or fear. Fear only creates more fear, and fear is created within yourself.

The only demons in this world are the ones running around our own hearts, and that is where all battles must be fought.

nahtanojmal 2012-03-11 18:13:42

No.6
I have re phrased it so it makes more sense.
I don't have a problem with my creation process or my hate mail.
I hate my concern for the shallowness of popularity.